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Staying Scared

When I had my son, I got scared. I ended up with post natal depression and social anxiety. Two years after my sons birth I began doing things that terrified me.

The first step was joining a local writers group. The Springfield Writers Group is made up of the most incredibly supportive and wonderfully talented human beings. I feel very privileged, two years on, to be able to call many of them friends. With their friendship and support I have continued to push myself into being scared.

I submitted writing out in to the world. My mum blog quickly became filled with writing posts. That blog has now been taken down but I can see myself revisiting the same topics, or reposting many of them here in the future.

Even after a year, and half a dozen anthologies with my by line … I was still treading along the line toward staying safe.

There are definitely times in our life where being safe is necessary and vital. Grabbing your dreams and turning them into life goals is definitely not that time.

But 2020 lulled me into a false sense of it’s ok to not push yourself. And for a while it was true. I got pneumonia and was tested several times for COVID-19. It took me six months to recover and then another month to realise that my comfort zone had shrunk once more and the mere idea of heading out in the car would send a cold shiver over my skin.

It wasn’t just one thing that finally pushed me to start scaring myself again. It was many little steps, many little wins, a few loses, and the constant and wonderful support of my partner, son, and incredible family, both blood and not.

The fear has pushed me to places I never thought I would be, to do things I never thought myself capable, able, or smart enough to do. When I get scared about something to do with promoting myself or getting my writing out in to the world I know I’m on the right track. The scariest thing I’ve done is to take myself seriously, as a writer.

So with the fear of discovering that maybe I’m not that smart or talented, I began researching writing: reading about it, learning what I could from books, people, and podcasts. And what has surprised me is the confidence I am gaining (regaining?) in myself, not just as a writer but as a human.

I’m working on a series of novellas for an overseas publisher, and am in the final editing stages with another publisher who is putting my first novella, Cold As Hell, out in to the world. I have also created the Les Fiction Book Club and been bravely contacting authors. I’ve put what money I can into pushing my writing career into gear, including self publishing a poetry collaboration, Forgiving Reflections.

I’m proud of what I’ve achieved and what I still aim to achieve. I’ve rarely said proud about myself, and never before without a warm cheeked shudder.

So fear is not always bad. Instead of shaking my head at steps that others suggest, I’m moving forward, at my own pace, and in a direction that while it might scare me, also feels right for me. Because you don’t have to move fast, or in someone else’s footsteps, you just have to move forward.

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Posted in Publications

Dark Moments

The title sounds far more depressing then the reality.

Dark Moments is the online Publication for Black Hare Press. And my latest drabble has been put up. It’s a free online Publication so there’s no reason to hesitate in going and checking it out 😉

My latest Dark Moments Drabble is called Bloody Mary – The theme is Dark Fae. I enjoyed writing this one quite a lot.

Read Blood Mary for free.

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Posted in Book Club

Book Club

September book of the month

Before I was a writer, I was a reader. A devouring-anything-I-could-get-my-hands-on type of reader.

The problem I had was that there were no representations of myself in the books I found. There weren’t many books I could see myself in, and even fewer I could access.

Now a days there are so many more books with such a diverse range of representations, but it’s not always easy to find people to talk about them with.

So instead of trying to find them, I decided to run a Facebook Les Fiction Book Club. *insert wide eyes and deep breathes now*.

It’s all new, and it’s really exciting. Being able to talk about books that feature characters I can relate to … it’s a little like heaven.

If you’re interested by all means jump on over to the Facebook group and see if it’s for you. https://www.facebook.com/groups/lesfictionbookclub

I’m going to be talking to author Jae about ‘Wrong Number, Right Woman’, our first book for the group, this coming Monday at 8:30pm (Australian Eastern Standard Time).

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Posted in Writing Adventures

Writer’s Retreat

I recently went on my first ever writer’s retreat. It was a simple three person unprogrammed trip away in a cottage surrounded by trees and the sound of birds.

It had been many years since I spent a night away on my own. With 2020 being what it is, there was a chance we wouldn’t be able to do what we wanted. However, things came together beautifully and I spent three days in the company of two other amazing Aussie authors.

By the end of the weekend I had written over 6000 words, had two uninterrupted nights sleep and discovered how relaxed I can be around like-minded and talented human beings.

It’s been an eye opening adventure on many fronts, and I hope to be able to do such retreats often in the future.

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